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Warning: This article contains graphic descriptions of sexual violence.
Survivor speaks publicly for the first time
A woman identified only as Nicky has detailed her alleged assault by convicted sex offender Jeffrey Epstein in an interview with BBC Newsnight, marking her first public account of the ordeal.
Nicky, who met Epstein at 19 while working as a model, said she was drugged and raped at his Palm Beach mansion after accepting a glass of water during a massage session.
The encounter
Nicky described her initial meeting with Epstein as a standard massage appointment. She complied when he asked her to remove her top and bra, assuming it was a harmless request from an eccentric wealthy client.
"I thought, maybe it's just an old rich guy with a fetish," she said. "It paid my rent, so I didn't question it."
Escalation and assault
During a subsequent visit, Epstein's behavior changed. Nicky recounted how he pulled at her jeans while she massaged him, despite her false claim of menstruation. He then masturbated in front of her before pressuring her to have sex.
After fleeing to the bathroom, Nicky returned to find Epstein offering her water. She blacked out shortly after drinking it and woke up hours later with physical evidence of sexual activity, though she had no memory of the assault.
"I've tried therapy to recall what happened, but it's a complete blank," she said. "I can only assume he drugged and raped me."
Epstein's alleged admission
Nicky said Epstein later confirmed her suspicions when he dismissed her lie about menstruation. "He told me, *'You don't have to lie to me, [Nicky].'* That's when I realized he knew because he'd assaulted me while I was unconscious," she said.
Aftermath and advocacy
The trauma left Nicky contemplating suicide. "I don't know how I survived," she said. Now, she is demanding the U.S. Department of Justice release all remaining files on Epstein, criticizing the agency for redacting survivors' identities while protecting others.
"It's a waste of taxpayer money," she said of the congressional intervention required to force transparency. "And calling it the *Epstein Transparency Act* just glorifies him. Why not name it after survivors?"
Call for accountability
Nicky urged the DOJ to release the remaining two million files ethically, arguing that constant media coverage of Epstein prevents survivors from healing. "We're just pawns in political discourse," she said. "It's disgusting."
"I would love for us to be able to heal."
Nicky, Epstein survivor
